Slept at an earthly hour last night (after a long time), but woke up because of some loud sound and then could not go back to sleep. Also i have been getting scary dreams since last 2-3 days. I remember I used to get scared of thunderstorms (I still do) and message my friends in hostel "Darr lag raha hai" and one of them used to come to my room or i shifted to their room and sleep. Remember Monika :)
It sounded very funny when I told them that thunder makes me feel as if a war is going on and that people are getting killed. And now when something like that has actually happened I am very disturbed. I can still go and sleep in my buddy's room or call her here...but i don't want to do that. I want to fight this feeling.
I wished I was a child who cuddles to its mother and feels completely secure... Arms around me, a slow pat on the back, a beating heart and flow of breath of a live person near me... and then fall asleep.
Thank God that when it is night here, there is day on the other side of the world. Chatted to one of my friends for a couple of hours and felt better... Now will get ready and go to work. Sleep will have to wait...
It sounded very funny when I told them that thunder makes me feel as if a war is going on and that people are getting killed. And now when something like that has actually happened I am very disturbed. I can still go and sleep in my buddy's room or call her here...but i don't want to do that. I want to fight this feeling.
I wished I was a child who cuddles to its mother and feels completely secure... Arms around me, a slow pat on the back, a beating heart and flow of breath of a live person near me... and then fall asleep.
Thank God that when it is night here, there is day on the other side of the world. Chatted to one of my friends for a couple of hours and felt better... Now will get ready and go to work. Sleep will have to wait...
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its sad, very sad.. but we have to be strong. there's just no other way..
take care, dear...
Thanks for your encouragement dear. I will be fine soon... Just that it is very difficult. I am trying. Today i am feeling much better after going to Colaba, like it was any other ordinary day...