After working on my thesis (and doing some time-pass) whole night, I happened to peep out of the window and look at the striking shade of blue in the sky. I immediately looked around for my camera. It took some 90 seconds before I could click this photo and in that span of time the coloour of the sky changed a bit. Nevertheless, it is still very near to (but not exactly) the 'blue' which I like.
I am neither very fond of a particular colour (except mauve and lilac) or hate a particular colour. I remember that as a child I didn't like 'yellow' at all. As I grew up, in my mind I started associating colours with different things. E.g. I like 'yellow' when it is a flower which I am looking at (and not Tata Nano or any other car). I would never wear a bright-yellow dress, but that doesn't mean I don't like the colour.
Similarly, I love certain shades of 'blue' which look best in a sky or in a water body. Looking at any of my favourite colours (or…
http://www.usefilm.com/images/2/8/5/9/2859/732054-medium.jpg Last night when I stood there, millions of unrelated thoughts kept coming and vanishing from my head. I was not able to hold on any one of them. I tried for a while and then lost to myself. They stood near me and kept talking to each other. I tried to listen to them but everything seemed incomprehensible.
With my back towards one of the 26/11 targets I rested both my hands on the cemented railing and gazed at the sea. Before I could realize I was already playing with the shimmering reflection of light in the sea. Focussing...defocussing...focussing again. And the streaks of light grew bigger and smaller like a wriggling snake in water. In the background the small boats bobbed up and down with beautiful irregularities, each one of them following its own rhythm. I smiled... Its not always that I notice such things. Aaj kal mein dhal gaya, din hua tamaam.Tu bhi so ja, so gayi rang bhari shaam.
I am almost there...the place from where this journey began. It looks a little different though. I don't remember how much time has passed. But I do remember that I was not alone then.
I had decided to go on this expedition in search of something special. It is not that I failed, but whatever I gained, I had to leave it behind. My hands are empty but the heart carries the load of both the loss and the gain.
Very soon I might forget it all or may be not. But one thing is sure, being the traveller that I am, I will surely begin another quest which will then lead me on a completely different journey. Till then I will just rest for a while.