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It affects me. It disturbs me. Not always though. But, yeah sometime it does. 'Time' is working on it but till now it hasn't succeeded in healing it. I hope it will. To catalyse this reaction I need a change of place. I want to go somewhere else. I don't want anybody I know around me. I want to live alone. Everything is irritating me.

I wish it were dust, or dried flowers, or an empty bottle or a worn out dress. Things would have been so easy then. I would have thrown it away, out of my sight. But it is neither of these...

It is nothing but my own thought which I am trying to disown. I push it away from myself and temporarily it gets lost somewhere. Later when I am unaware it slowly creeps in my mind and disturbs me for hours. It brings with itself, its friends, several unanswered questions. The answers of which I know not.

I just know I was right and I am right. Life has been unfair in some sense. Why? Why me? How do I prevent it from happening again?

There is only one way. And I know that...

(What's happening to me? May be it's just PMS.)


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